Trying to force myself to paint but I’m so uninspired…

Maybe it’s trapped rage, anger, frustration that led to this depression. Can I force myself to be creative? I’m not sure.

Life is not going well for me in my personal life. I am very unhappy. I am trying to just be happy. Trying to focus on other things and be non-emotional. Perhaps this just isn’t working for me.

I feel so lost. So alone. So barren and desperate. I long for connection but I feel so alienated from the outside world.

I’m stuck. I tell myself this is all okay and I’m human. And I’m not just going to worship my problems away like some Christians say to do.

I feel my feelings! I accept them and myself. God STILL loves me even though I am very depressed! I am not a failure because I’m depressed! I am human!!!


2 thoughts on “Trying to force myself to paint but I’m so uninspired…

  1. This was a really bad day for me and I didn’t get much empathy. It seems I am learning that I need to handle my life and problems by myself.
    No one is going to save me or rescue me. I must rescue myself. My problems are my responsibility and life just gets messy when you involve others in your life.


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