One of my biggest issues has been following people. I mean there are good people out there that can be good role-models, however, God wants me to follow Him. Not people.
What I would do is look to others way to much for my cues as to how to live my life. If someone was doing something for example like exercising I would compulsively think that I was suppose to do that. The examples could be endless. I hope I am making myself clear here. It was insane. I really didn’t want to do what other people were doing anyway. I just thought I had to.
I thought there was something wrong with me because I was not like the others. I thought I was defective and weird. Well, I completely confess to being different. I don’t do things the way other people do things because…well…I am not them. And they are not me! That’s okay, I now tell myself. 🙂
God wants me to follow Him by the guidance He gives me through the Holy Spirit. I see He really wants me to go to Him first. He wants me to ask Him, not people. I admit I have no clue what I am doing with my life. And many other people don’t either. So why should I go to them?
I can go to the Creator of the universe. He made me so, He should know who I am and what on earth I am here for! Sometimes the obvious, to me, is not so obvious.
I am amazed at all the people in the world who seem like they have life all figured out. Well, good for them. I don’t. I’m clueless.
Going to God should give me freedom. It does…once I lean into that freedom. It is the freedom from trying to control the world and other people! God says I have self-control by His Spirit. I just need to believe and then step out like I do believe.