As I was doing my devotions this morning I noticed one of those red number circles on my iPhone that bug me. So I went to the app social cam to see what it was for. It was notifying me that this
person I follow Trenton Shelton had posted a new video.
So I watched it. It really spoke to something deep in me. It was like an answer to prayer confirming what my gut had been trying to tell me. I have been flip flopping around all my life. I have not been respecting myself!
I guess I figured turning the other cheek was allowing myself to constantly be mistreated. So I have put up with A LOT of mistreatment. It felt wrong. But then people would say don’t rely on your feelings. So I was confused. I can’t even put it into words, but I know that there are people out there who know what I am saying!
Then their are the people who pile on the guilt. I don’t understand how they can do this with a clear conscious. People can do and say things to make you feel guilt when you should not. Mixed messages…so many. But this is clear to me: God doesn’t want me to allow myself to be mistreated. If something feels wrong then is probably is. Trust your instinct. I can draw lines in the sand. They are my BOUNDARIES of what I will and will not allow. Every person has a right to do this including Esther Marie Bautista!
If I don’t respect myself than how can I expect other to do the same? I have to listen to the still small voice and go with my gut and not be afraid that I am wrong. If I am wrong God will surely tell me!